I’m Coming Out: My Personal Story

guys it's me Mickey today I am here to share something with you that I've always wanted to share with you one day but under my own circumstances and it looks like that chance has been taken away from me am taking back my own power and I have to tell you something planet Earth is full of labels and I never feel comfortable with labels I wanted to be my own person my own identity my own human being without any rules without any labels and without any restrictions it is a brand new year it is 2020 and I want to start the year off with the truth I want to start the year off by finally revealing a part of my life that has made me who I am I want to talk about a part of myself that makes me me I can't believe I'm saying this today to all of you for the entire world to see but damn it feels good to finally do it it is time to let go and be truly free when I was younger I was born in the wrong body which means that I am transgender now so surreal saying this filming this video is scary but it feels so liberating and freeing I've been wanting to share this side of myself to all of you for so long but I could never figure out the timing and there always was the day where I would tell you I did not expect that day to be today but here we are I am nikkietutorials and I am Nikki I am me we don't need labels if we are gonna put a label on it yes I am transgender but at the end of the day I am me and at the end of the day you are you I am sharing this with you because I feel free enough now for you to truly follow my journey not the power of makeup but the power of me the power of you just like me you get to write your own story live your life live it without any restrictions you can be you you are in charge of how you want to live your life guys we're in 2020 and if there ever was a time the time is right now I am here to openly share that I am transgender and with this message I want to inspire little Nicky's around the world who feel insecure who feel out of place who feel misunderstood I hope by me standing up and being free that it inspires others to do the same to truly live your life like you want it and the way you deserve it this world needs us we need to accept each other we need to respect each other but most of all we need to hear each other and understand it doesn't matter what type of label someone belongs to what kind of hair color someone has the type of clothing twear their height their weight their size the way tlook the way twant to express themselves it is 2020 and it is time for us to understand accept hear and respect the time for you to love yourself and express yourself the way you truly feel is now I have taken that step many years ago many years ago but I'm fighting my battles every single day and I know you guys are out there too it won't be easy but damn it it will be so worth it when my mom was pregnant she later told me that she was convinced that she was having a girl and little did she know that she was actually having a girl I came out of her and and there was a surprise she didn't get any echoes because she was convinced that it was gonna be a girl and out came me hi and there was a little surprise a surprise to my mom definitely a surprise to me as soon as I had brains to think with ever since I was born I've always thought that I was a girl and I just couldn't understand why why I had short hair why I had to wear trousers and a t-shirt and like why couldn't I wear dresses and I played with dolls I did everything with with nail polish with with hair brushes with fake hair with Barbie dolls like all of me was girly my mom knew immediately that maybe there was gonna be gay or a different type of story and it turned out to be a different type of story growing up I think the number one thing and the most thankful for is my mom love you mom because she has been there for me since day one she has always supported me always accepted me and that is everything you need as a kid a parent that understands and listens and respects so momma tutorials is a real one and she always supported me and by the age of six I grew my hair out people at my school knew I mean tsaw and I think by the age of seven eight a fully wore girls clothes only and it felt amazing and the teachers were so supportive about it and of course kids are kids you know this is confusing and some kids got it and other kids in my class did not which is fine but I always be so thankful for all the teachers at that school who supported my journey and supported me I've always lived my youth as a girl and the hardest part of living youth as a girl when you're not fully officially a girl yet is that you have to tell people in your life who you truly are even though you feel like you so this is hard to explain so you feel like you feel trapped is the first thing you feel trapped and you're angry because why me why did I get this but growing up I think the hardest part was meeting new people and getting close to them and telling them aside to your life that you don't even want to talk about because you hate that part of your life you don't want to beat that part of your life you don't want to be known for that single part of your life but still you have to and that is so hard and many a times in my life I've had to tell close friends my true story and it's heartbreaking especially after transitioning and going through everything and closing that chapter you don't want to talk about it anymore because you're like okay that rough part of my life I got through it I survived I did it and now I can close it off but you can never truly close it off for good and I am accepting that nowadays and I am embracing that nowadays because it's time for me to be truly me for all of you just because I know people are gonna ask yes I got fully transitioned by the time I was 14 I got my hormones because I'm a tall [ __ ] and I kept on growing and twere like let's tone that down I got growth Stoppers because I was supposed to be a whole lot taller than I already am today so tstopped my growth and tgave me hormones and by the time I was 19 I fully transitioned I transitioned while on YouTube and saying that right now sounds so crazy to me because I have literally grown up and transformed into me in front of all of you now pulling back to the portion where I talked about having to tell people close to you your true and full story I know people are gonna ask a lot of questions about Dylan now Dylan is a very very special guy and I've never met anyone like Dylan he is truly the most kind-hearted man in my life our relationship moved so fast and the thing is especially for me and I don't know how other trends people do this but especially for me this is my story when I in my love life it is flippin scary ok trusting someone enough to be truly you flip and scary so to me I wait until I tell my full story until I know I'm in good hands because people out there are sc