Before You Get Filler..we Should Talk…

this happened to both of my under eyes during the time that i had under eye filler uh hi so i don't know how i want to start this i wanted to talk to you guys about under eye filler some of you who have been subscribed for a while might already know this story and this whole situation but um you know since i did a lot of these videos um i got a lot more subscribers uh and a lot of you may have subscribed or come here because of my like dark circle content and maybe you have some of these like thoughts or problems or whatever i just want to talk about this because i think it's really important so really quick i'm gonna probably just insert the photo but let me just make sure that i have it because otherwise why are we even doing this let me just insert it so it's easier for you guys to see but god damn bruh god damn all right if you take a good look at that that was a side effect of having under eye filler that didn't start to show itself until about i want to say a year and a half in maybe a year in and it was like slow and it basically looks like i have a like i got punched in the eye this happened to both of my under eyes during the time that i had under eye filler so if you don't know just a really quick summary um about four years ago ish i got under eye filler under both of my eyes for sunken under eye and also to help with the darkness the dark circles that i have and i basically never really liked the way that it looked uh it kind of like it would look really good when it was first done and then it would kind of settle into these like lima bean looking things if you look at old videos you might actually be able to see it and i kind of just dealt with it for a while because i knew it would be expensive to get it dissolved um the reason that i got it like i said was for dark circles and um hollow under eyes and that was like probably my biggest insecurity since i was about old enough to have them so i don't know 10 or 11. i had it for two years and i ended up getting it dissolved and when i got it the reason that i got it was dissolved was because of those side effects and when he dissolved it i went to a completely different person um an actual like eye doctor guy he was great if i can remember zumalman was that his last name i'll link i'll link him i realized how much i actually liked my natural under eyes so much better and it was kind of like i had to go through that experience this whole shitty experience where my eyes would blow up if i had like a cold or a virus because your immune system is like i have to attack everything that isn't supposed to be here and they're like you're not supposed to be in here uh and it would get super swollen and painful uh sometimes it would just hurt if like i had a cold but yeah it would swell up it would be really red and almost impossible to cover up it was horrible after a little while rather than and i have the photo it looked like the filler was trying to like come out of my skin like it was trying to escape my face it was it was like such a horrible experience and nothing went well at all uh i did it because i was insecure about my under eye situation and it ended up not being worth it at all i'm really glad that i did it because now i look back and i think it was a stupid decision if i could do it again i wouldn't um but i am really glad that i did it because it made me really appreciate like my actual anatomy so one of the reasons that i wanted to talk about this is because these are side effects that maybe some people have talked about i feel like i've seen a few people talk about it since i have but it's not that well known and filler has gotten so mainstream that it's i mean it's happening everywhere it isn't just like a hollywood thing it isn't just an influencer thing anymore it's everywhere and i think people don't really like consider how serious it can be and what the side effects are um especially those ones i didn't know about them i wanted to share my experience because i know that it's become more prevalent also things like botox the reason that i want to talk about this is not just to tell you that i had these side effects and you shouldn't do it i don't think any less of anyone who has done you know who has gotten botox or has got i've considered like in my mind i haven't actually like gone and done it or had a consultation or anything but i've definitely considered those things um like botox even since the filler just because it's hard not to when you see other people doing it around you and like women are supposed to be smooth for their whole lives or whatever but the reason that i'm bringing this up is because it's less about that it's less about those decisions making those decisions and doing those things it's more about why do we think that it'll make us more confident because oftentimes if you ask somebody like why twant to get a boob job or why twant to get under eye filler or lip filler botox it's to like feel better you know like feel better about myself maybe i want to look a little bit younger or i don't like like this line that's coming in i don't like it so i want you know i want to smooth it out why why is getting rid of that line and plumping up those under eyes and plumping up those lips going to make you feel better about yourself and i think that's like the biggest question and i would be interested in hearing from you guys why if you've considered that not just like well i think it'll make me more confident or it'll make me feel better about myself or to make me less insecure but why will it do those things i want to have that discussion with you i think it's important and especially in the beauty community especially like influencers i live in la okay the [ __ ] is everywhere people are getting work done all over the place it's become mainstream and i'm i reject it i'm at a point where i want to reject it i really like my face sometimes i don't sometimes i'm like oh i've got this anger line coming in like really strong here or like worry lines or you know my lips are gonna get thinner as i get older or like my under eyes are gonna get like saggier or whatever but i actually think that's a good thing and this is literally just a psa so i want to talk to you guys about that in the comments i'm interested in your thoughts um again no like shade to anyone who's had anything done i mean i did you know and i had a bad experience with it and that has kind of like informed my opinion about it now and i just don't i don't think it's like that simple so uh but one of the main reasons that i wanted to talk about this was just because i have a lot of content about like being insecure about my like dark circles and how to conceal them and all of that stuff and i've kind of reached a point where like the majority of the time i'm going out no makeup i mean i recorded recently that video where it's like how to feel a little bit more comfortable or confident when you're not wearing makeup 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